Where Are the Fucking Emotions?

Let me tell you something.., I feel like shit right now.! The reason I’m writing is just because I want to tell you something which is totally relevant. If you ask me what it’s like to be a single with lot of crap in the society and what’s it like to live with it, then I can probably argue on that.

Yet I can’t express them, since there are no god damn emotions left? And, the irony is I’m a writer . I feel so shallow and so burned up in my own world. I don’t have any human being around me to motivate, except for my wonderful dogs who are the reason behind my ambition. I still enjoy the privacy of my life and never find it empty. I can’t recognize myself anything less than ambitious. Usually my state of mind is so neutral that during moments of happiness I don’t feel happy. It’s just so normal for me. Any problem doesn’t scares me, I just deal with it somehow.

I don’t allow any emotions overrule my brain except for ambition, which is my absolute life-blood. So what am I – a goddamn ambitious vampire with red blood in veins? I’m pretty sureĀ  it’s not just me, but many of you out there trying to figure out what has killed emotions.

The irony is we’ve got lot of emoticons in smartphones and apps, which have gradually diminished in our real lives with time. Why? Because being emotional is so damn uncivilized to some and makes people uncomfortable.

Can you imagine it could be this silly? I can prove this.

Only yesterday I was travelling in a cab with my friend, and suddenly her mom calls him up. As an obedient son, she asked about her health and well-being, since she obviously cares about her. Next she reported him that she won’t eat, since she is alone and feeling lazy to cook for only herself. My friend insisted his mother to eat. So, she swore on her that if she(mother) doesn’t eats in an hour, she’d skip her meal too.

That was the scenario of the back seat. The driver soon got irritated, since I was observing the whole event, I could say he just plugged-in the headphones, because he wanted to ignore the mother-son emotional conversation. The driver found it uncomfortable or perhaps uncivilized to talk emotionally.

Another instance when we were returning from our trip yesterday, we had to share the cab and it was late, so we started talking about the movie we just saw. This driver was rather rude, as he really wanted to get rid of us. He drove rash on empty road, yet it didn’t stop our conversation. Then, he picked up another passenger who was shared the cab with us. We continued laughing and making fun of movies till the end of our trip. Now it was a two-on-two situation, both the other passenger and driver were feeling uncomfortable.

I later realized that people have become so robotic that they tend to act like Siri. I mean seriously?? If someone is uncomfortable by hearing/watching someone else laugh, then what the hell are they doing on earth? We’re human beings after all and deserve to have emotions in life.

If you want to laugh or cry, then there should be no shame in going public. Stopping yourself just because people around you will feel uncivilized is crazy. Just think, are you living for yourself or for others?

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Which is Weak- Love or Human Ability to Sustain With It?

Often I see and come across many stories. Each of them are more or less common in nature. Mostly stories begin with attraction and love, and end at indifference due to vanished love. So here’s my first question, “Is love so weak to vanish just like that?”

Undoubtedly if I were a love fairy, I’d rather defend saying that love is the most perpetual emotion and feeling in a human’s life, it just can’t vanish. Rather, human’s ability to handle and live with it is weak. I had this moment where a conflict of love fairy and hate fairy stuck my head. So, I’m going to put this together in a conversation that was happening in my mind.

Hate Fairy: See, I told you that Love is Weak. It makes a person weak and becomes painful for anyone.
Love Fairy: No dear, Love isn’t weak. The Human’s ability to live with it is weak.

Hate Fairy: Humans? They are the most intelligent and practical beings, how can they be weak?

Love Fairy: Let me explain- There’s a simple law of universe that you get what you give. Humans have the tendency to get attracted, fall in love and do most of the things at their convenience and pleasure. However, they don’t want to give anything in return. They want to experience love, care and affection. But, when it comes to giving, only a few amongst them are able to survive throughout their lives.

Rest you may see, how relationships are made for selfness. Humans have chosen selfness over selflessness. The ability to be kind and considerate is vanishing.

Hate Fairy: So where’s the weakness? I see only a problem.!

Love Fairy: Do you know that selfness is a weakness which makes a person lonely. A selfish person cannot live happily and can’t keep other around him happy. Though it is likely that he expects someone to please him, but naturally that’s called “using someone at your service emotionally”.

Hate Fairy: Yeah, so what’s bad about it? I mean how does love makes a difference anyway? Love demands too much..!

Love Fairy: If it demands, then it’s simply an expectation. Love is unconditional. It’s like you’re always ready to do anything despite any situation.

Love doesn’t makes you weak, it rather strengthens your bond. It is not supposed to be a give & take business. It is supposed to contain compassion, kindness, affection, and caring attitude. And Hate tell me how many humans today contain all of these emotions?

Hate Fairy: I’m not too sure. But why does love vanishes?

Love Fairy: When the reason behind the so called expectations aren’t fulfilled. One with expectations becomes the dominant. And you already know, if the dominant isn’t pleased, he cannot survive in a relationship.

Hate Fairy: Ah that made sense.! So if humans are emotionally weak, then how come they’ve sustained throughout so many generations?

Love Fairy: Out of necessity. There’s been a necessity of genesis and reproduction throughout the mankind.

Hate Fairy: I hate to say but I’m logically convinced.

It was really pathetic for me to settle uponĀ this conclusion. Only a few hours ago, I had an experience of vanished love. One of my close friends has a dog and he is a crazy dog-lover. We were having a conversation about how expenses should be managed, and he was like, “I want to throw this dog out. He has literally ruined my life. It’s very difficult to bear his expenses.”

That was the most shocking thing for me. I interrupted him saying, “Where’s your love for this creature now? All this time you’ve been only bragging about how much you love your dog?? You don’t even care about the fact how would it feel when you’ll abandon him. Imagine, yourself being abandoned by your parents as a kid, how would you feel then?”

It was at this time he mellowed and realized what he just did. After this instance, I have obviously thought of keeping a realty check on his dog, because I can’t trust what he would do to him. However, my purpose of narrating this story was to show how love vanishes.

Our needs and necessities dominate us to an extent that we tend cheat on those who love us unconditionally. Having lost my grandmother and father four years ago, made me realize the true value of love and the way I on cheated them. Though, I’m blessed with a baby retriever, whom I love more than my life.

I don’t think I can ever cheat on anyone with love.

I hope after reading this, you would avoid to cheat on anyone with Love.

Let me know what you think of this..!